Happy New Year kids, check out this vid; DJ Earworm is well worth a check out on YouTube, got some sick remixes; this one's a pretty good mix of the chart stuff of 2010, brings back some good memories :)
Tuesday, 4 January 2011
maybe i've found that place...
Not so long ago, I blogged about 'the place where i feel most like me', how I'd come to realise life is that long journey to find the place where you become yourself, your true self. I think I'd come to conclude that my journey was just beginning, that I didn't think I'd soon be finding my true identity, but a series of realisations have prompted me to a different train of thought.
I think that I believed to be yourself, you had to believe you had it all (whatever that 'all' was to you); and I believed that to be yourself you had to have that collective package, otherwise, you just weren't you. However, I now see that isn't true. I don't know what things have happened over the past month or so, but I now realise that I'm already that person, that I don't need a 'place' where I feel most like me, because that place is not so important. If anything, it's been people lately who have restored my sense of identity.
I don't think I need to worry anymore, about future careers, financial stuff, what I'm going to do with my life or any of that, cos let's be honest God Only Knows! This new person, this 'me' I guess, has taught me to think more positively. True, I'm still not 100% sure of my identity, but really, isn't that part of us anyway? I don't think anyone can safely say that they are 100% sure of themselves, or that they have it all, everything to complete them. But I'm glad to say, I'm now embracing the gaps, the missing pieces. Maybe one day I'll have them all and the puzzle will be complete. But for now, I'm just happy being how I am.
I think that I believed to be yourself, you had to believe you had it all (whatever that 'all' was to you); and I believed that to be yourself you had to have that collective package, otherwise, you just weren't you. However, I now see that isn't true. I don't know what things have happened over the past month or so, but I now realise that I'm already that person, that I don't need a 'place' where I feel most like me, because that place is not so important. If anything, it's been people lately who have restored my sense of identity.
I don't think I need to worry anymore, about future careers, financial stuff, what I'm going to do with my life or any of that, cos let's be honest God Only Knows! This new person, this 'me' I guess, has taught me to think more positively. True, I'm still not 100% sure of my identity, but really, isn't that part of us anyway? I don't think anyone can safely say that they are 100% sure of themselves, or that they have it all, everything to complete them. But I'm glad to say, I'm now embracing the gaps, the missing pieces. Maybe one day I'll have them all and the puzzle will be complete. But for now, I'm just happy being how I am.
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